I am really nervous about having
surgery. I find it interesting how I questioned whether or not I should go
through with it. I have known since we had Brooklyn 11 years ago that I was
done having babies. I was so sure that I even had a tubal ligation done. Which
is permanent and can’t necessarily be reversed; you can have in vitro
fertilization done and go that route if you decide later on to continue having
children. So when the doctor said that we had exhausted all other methods of
treatment for the issues that I have been suffering for several years and that
the only option left was laparoscopic supracervical hysterectomy, all potential
options of having another baby were gone. I have to admit that it didn’t really
bother me until James brought it up.
Then I went back and forth for a few days. While it would be fun to have
another baby, our oldest is 17 and our youngest is 11, it would be like
starting a whole new family and I don’t have the energy for that anymore. The
four I have now drained me. The benefits of this surgery are astronomical. It
is going to change my whole life and I look forward to that. Another benefit,
if we do get pregnant, I will know for a fact that it’s not mine…James will
have some splanin’ to do.
We are so blessed to have wonderful friends who have stepped
up without even being asked to help out with the kids and meals and support. I
even have a friend flying in to stay with me while James and Tyler are at high
adventure camp. I so appreciate everything they have done and are going to do
to help.
Here’s to a successful surgery tomorrow!
